Don't Give Up.

This whole weekend isn't going to be that productive. Only did math today, and I won't even be studying much tomorrow as I'm going to my grandfather's house to mahjong. Actually wanted to reject my dearest aunt but I guess she was too hard to reject. 

Went to study in the afternoon with my shortie today with her heading down to tiong's subway. Did some math papers and I swear studying at subway just tempt me to eat subway cookies. ( I swear I love Raspberry Cheesecake cookie it's awesome ) 

My shortie's definition of studying. Alright I'm being mean she really did complete a Math Paper. *claps* 

Me and Cheryl's jaw practically dropped open when Nicholas Ng came and gave us our ' Children's Day Present ' . Thanks Nicholas for the Famous Amos Cookie. Totally did not expect it at all. Get well soon by the way. 

And we headed to tiong barhu's plaza and ate Eighteen Chefs it's awesome totally recommend it as it's cheap ( For students ) and also delicious. 

Pardon my poor camera taking skills. 

Went to Mount Faber Safra to pool for around 3 hours before heading home.

To everyone who's taking their examinations right now, don't give up halfway and fight for what you aim for. As long as you tried your best, there's nothing to be disappointed about. It is only when you have not put in your best efforts, then regrets start flowing in. 

GoodLuck! 

Goodbye. 

Weird Crazy Maniac Me

Been doing purely on math these few days i swear I'm becoming more stress the more I do. Weird being the one whom do things the opposite of others. Others usually feel less stress with more Practise, but for my case, I feel so dumb if I do not know how to complete a question, or if I was so confident In that question but ended up getting a wrong for it. 

It's so hard to be brave when you're scared, it's as though you feel that you will not emerge as a winner no matter how much efforts you put in. Staying strong when in actual fact, you are weak, is such a difficult task to handle. 

Met up with this girl today with my shortie Cheryl. ( Please don't kill me for posting this up ) 

Somehow that sums up my whole boring day for the day I went to school. 

I was whining to Cheryl that I should not have came to school, that I could've been sleeping at home. Ohwell, too bad I promised my shortie I will make a presence in school today. 

Wondering why am I not put into a mental asylum yet I practically look like a retard please pardon me if you had expected a post with minimum photos of me but ended up with crazy maniac photos of me. 

Basically, I literally spent the whole morning in school in vain. 

To this dear friend of mine.

There's this constant situation that has always been bugging my mind up till now. This post is directed to you, once again I have a post about you, I have so many things to say but I'm not sure whether any of these will hurt you. 

Yes, I admit, that tweet you were referring to about, was referring to you. I admit I missed all the moments we had. No words can describe how I feel about our broken friendship. 

Whenever someone mention your name, a little tingling sadness pulled in my heart, knowing that things are not the way it was. Yes I admit, things are like that, was mostly due to the fault of me. I ruined this friendship with my own hands. 

I never liked how you somehow don't favour the presence of (you know who) going out with us. If you know about me, I like having all of my good friends around me, it just makes me feel blissful. The way you always give that sad grin whenever you ask me something & I replied, I've always wondered what was on your mind every single time. 

Talking to my friends about you always brings me on the emotional side, I still remembered how you ran to the mama

Shop in the rain to purchase for me chocolates because I was in a sad/bad mood. You ended up catching the flu. I remembered how you always tried to be there for me when I got my heart brokened, even though it always left you speechless and useless. I don't like the way you feel when you feel useless that you couldn't make me happy. That just makes me not confide things to you, as I don't want you feeling all moody and sad for being unable to help me. All I needed at those times was just a listening ear, not a friend to be emotional with me. 

I'm sorry I couldn't be the friend that you want. Thank you for standing up for me when people bad-mouthed me. You were there to witness the changes in me, and playing a part in it. Thank you for appreciating the efforts I tried to put in to change myself in terms of behaviour and personality. Even though we may not be on talking terms right now, I still hope for the best for you. Thank you for researching on migraine, showing that you still care for me despite all the wounds I had inflicted mentally on you. 

Please remember what we said, we have to do well for our O's together and go to the courses that we want. Don't give up halfway. Let's just settle things after O's, I promise you, things may not be the same again, but you will still hold a place in my heart. 

I'm sorry for breaking the DM twitter thing on not replying though. 

GoodBye. 

Complacency

Somehow I feel like blogging about a topic me & Cheryl was talking about. 

'Complacency' 

Some of us may be too complacent in life, and as a result, result in a few actions or behaviour which you may regret for life. For example, being too complacent Afew months ago, that my O's was still a long way ahead. Regretting now for not starting earlier on my revision. Urge everyone to start studying and revising now and not be complacent on how much time you have left towards your major exams. 

Or maybe, being complacent that you have someone who always stuck by you at all times, thus you took that someone for granted, and lose that person in the end. 

The best way to not let someone gain pure joy by the looks of your suffering is smiling throughout the whole journey. 

Had some catch up session with these girls on Tuesday. Swear that they are such nice people to talk to. 

So Jamie was using my phone to take photos of me folding a star. So many unglams and this is just one of the many unglams. I almost forgot how to fold stars. *dumbmodeswitchedon* 

Alright short post Goodbye. 

Small gesture.

Something, or maybe, someone, showed me a slight gesture that warmed my heart today. 

Lent this book to Thundar and she returned it to me today. Was so touched to see this note on top of it when I finally saw it. Little gestures like this to show that you appreciate and you care makes me feel elated. Practically smiled to myself in class when I discovered this note. Thanks Thundar. 

My beautiful fatty finally made her appearance in school today. Been so long since the last time I saw her. Never fail to be myself whenever I'm with her, not needing to put on a facade for the sake of surviving in this judgemental world. 

Had little chats with this girl today and I swear today's a day with lots of laughter. Laughing over the silliest things, talking about our thoughts and feelings. Feeling guilty though, we skipped an Evening of studying to chat. Did not regret though, anyways I was utterly exhausted. 

There are many different parts and stories of life, it just depends on whether you want to face the optimistic or pessimistic side of it. For example: 

1) Love can be built through knowing and understanding each other more. 

2) Love can never be forced. 

爱是可以培养的。

爱是不可以勉强的。

It just depends on which side of it you want to believe in. 

( One of the profound conversations I was having with my shortie. ) 

Very few understand the inner term. 

Goodbye. 

Approximately 2 more weeks.

Approximately 2 more weeks till the start of O's, inclusive of the first thing, Science Practical. 

Up till now, my foundations on every subject still isn't strong enough to secure me a good grade. Been reading on more books to heighten my potentiality of vocab words, and also doing more practices for dnt & mathematics. 

Fortunately for me, my bro didn't throw away any of his secondary school mathematics practice books. 

Nicholas is out of his 3 weeks of hellhole army!~ Went to study & ice-skate to catch up and release stress. 

Ate ' Itacho Sushi ' @ Jcube for dinner. Totally worth it, the tuna salad was only $4.50 and the spicy tuna with beancurd sushi was only $1.20! ( Yupp I totally love tuna. ) there's a $0.40 sushi too. *eyesblingbling* 

My bro's forever photo-bombing. 

Disco night & it was kinda dizzy trying to skate with all the lights revolving around. 

If it's friends you're talking about, our relationship isn't just a mere normal friendship. To me, she's like a little sister whom I can count on any time, who I can't bear seeing her getting injured. ( like falling down when ice-skating ). Her efforts to try to make me push myself to study, and to focus on my Science too, everything stays in my brain even though I don't show it. Everything just feels better with her around. 

Good luck in army nic. Sorry for laughing, I was just overwhelmed. I'm sure you will see this because you're always so bored, so you read my blog. ;) 

Bedok Food Centre today with my parents. Awesome! 

Bro bought a laptop which is exactly the same as mine, mine is around 3 months old though. 

This Instagram account makes me feel so motivated to continue exercising even though it's so hard to get motivated. Move to achieve what you want, regardless being about a greatass body, or great grades, sitting around will not help you achieve what you yearn for. 

Goodbye. 

' A thousand years '