Today Chinese teacher played a touching video , second time I'm watching it . But it still never fails to make me tear . I swear it's damn paiseh to be crying in class , luckily Nicholas brought back my mood with his life story that teacher asked him about ! :)

When watching the video , I thought about my life since young , how I grew up with my father loving me. Thinking about it, I've never cherished him . We have differences . Whenever I eat with him , he always seem so hungry , jiu geisiao say I cannot finish, give him half of my food . In the end get scolded by him for wasting food . When I was young , he will always care for me . Knowing that he will get scolded by standing up for me infront of my mum, he still always help me . My father is not in good health, always coughing , falling sick , pains everywhere on his body . Watching the video and thinking about my father , what am I , unfilial daughter ? Third post about my father alr , typing all these always brings me to tears. I'm sorry .

Random .

At comlab here with cheryl Darling now beside me because i forced her to sit beside me because im a loner . OPPS .

hehe , training later . woosh !

been crazy over my eyebags recently , tadahhh , batman in action !

gonna go buy more after school , after training ! hehe ,

Anyone wanna buy it , you can buy it at Sasa now !

One mask actually cost around .. 4.95?

But sasa is having a sale and is selling it at only 1.95! And its quite useful , even though i still have puffy eyes .

Super cooling effect after using it . How to know when to take it out ? When its dried up . (You dont say lorhs ! ) LOL .

So .... go buy if you want your puffy eyes and wrinkles to decrease . (PS , im having wrinkles at only this age , MYHELL)

Abrupt ending ! BYE !

3:00PM .

Im still holding on , holding on those criticisms i get from people who dont know me , who i really am . Am i really such a nice person to hate , or does my looks irks you ? Or does my thick-skinnedness irks you ? Tell me , actually , i dont mind , i just detest those gossips behind my back . But one thing is , i wont change for you , because if you really treat me as someone important , you will accept me for who i am .

Quarrels

Quarreled with my mum again . As usual . This time , over something stupid . Like erm... Shoe size ? -.- , defug i know .. And as usual , she drag my father in over things that are super long ago, talking about sides , what go to your father side . When does a complete family have sides ? Yeah i admit , i hate going home because sometimes , having dinner with you all and talking to your will bring about quarrels . Even joking with you , also cannot . Then why ? Why keep calling me to go home and have dinner with you all , when i have no freedom of speech , when just having dinner with your brings about so much quarrels? Sometimes when im just so tired .. i refuse to go home , because the result is always quarreling , and my father will always be the victim . Why must you humiliate all of us in front of the crowd , in front of strangers with all your shoutings at us ? Dont you treat us as family ? Why do you even do that , when you know we care alot about our faces ? Some people are jealous of people with a complete family . But , even with a complete family , that have quarrels everyday , and not being able to face each other for weeks , whats the use ? Usually its all these shits that brings down my morality . Im sorry dad , for being so unfilial , and then its always you who have to suffer , suffer those humiliations , having to say sorry repeatedly when its not your fault , when its me who refuse to apologise , when its you who have to endure those scoldings in replace for my peace . 

oh , lets talk about more happy things kay ? Youth Carnival on saturday , who went to support ? ^.^ , SADLY , my class , no one played the games , even though its fun . We only earned money through our face painting , awww , i was such a good cashier , i stayed there for a long period of time till the last one hour when i went to play volleyball at the hall ! Oh , and i got back my happy phone from my teacher , yayy !

and miss polina came to our booth , i was like ' Can i take a picture with you ? I want take photo with you ! ' and she was like ' Yeah sure , i wanna take a picture with you too ! ' and she took out her camera ! That made my day okay ! :b ,

this girl was scared that i wont go school , then she be loner cashier :B , i wont so easy pangseh people one okay if i know your alone ! :b , DONT THINK SO LOWLY OF ME :P , okaycannnnnnn .

oh i just had my chinese oral on friday . Guess what , its a picture at the hdb block with shoes and racks , clothes hanging on top of the flower pots . Stunned for a moment , then i remembered my chinese teacher say ' Just try your best , describe the photo can already ! ' so i just literally described it , and its my first time trying my best so say as much as i could . There was a question which the invigilator asked

[ are singaporeans considerate nowadays ? ]

i replied


[ Singaporeans are inconsiderate nowadays because they are selfish and only think about themselves . BUT , i think im considerate because i always think and care for others ]

GUESS WHAT ,
the teacher laughed at me :(

guess my level of BHB is x1000000000000, can even bhb in front of an invigilator ,

but overall , at least i said things , usually , oral i say nothing one , maybe one word one word ? Sigh , my communication skills sucks .
kayyy .... abrupt ending , BYE !

i need to be happy ..i need to . No one understands how i feel , i want to give up ..

8.15PM

Rain.

Whats been happening these few days ? I mean weeks . Yeah , Singapore's damn fucking fugging hot. Like ..WHAT ?! So when it started raining , the responses were like as though Singapore's snowing ! (Y) , see the importance of the rain now ? HAHA .

actually one day i feel like just sitting in the rain , on the beach , facing the sea , and just stare into midair. 





so its actually the weekends now . And yeah confirm plus chop , time will pass so quickly.

HAHA , who are the people who are like the photo below ?

oh yeah, Juniors won the match against Jurong Yesterday . #prideofHuaYi !
Next match is against Shuqun , hope you all can do it ! :) WOOSH , i have confidence in you all !

Like so cool , i love diving and setting , even though sometimes diving hurts , but then , only volleyballers know the feeling of diving and being able to save the ball feels /




oh and people , stop asking why i choose HuaYi when i live so far ! I last time live at cck , but i moved to TiongBarhu after selling my condo at ChoaChuKang , and im currently staying at my grandma's house right now . Recently bought a new house which will only construct finish in 2014 , at CCK , so yeah . Dont ask anymore :) !

TIME NOW , 3;48pm
its time to go do my math homework now .

School ! :(

so .. school reopened already . and since i said i will do a blogpost yesterday night , and i forgot , so yeah here it is !

remember the time when we were in primary school and we relied on school buses ? ( for some of us ) Then now ? MRTS and buses , we have to rely on ourselves to go school , no maids no mothers bringing you to school , carry for you schoolbag . Talking about schoolbag , have your heard about the army man making his maid carry his haversack ? Opps no side tracking !

Im so not ready for school please , so whos with me ? Lets petition for prolonging the holidays ? Impossible dream ! Homeworks half done , this is so not happening please , who else prayed like me , to have their homeworks done magically by themselves in a night ? HAHA .

stationeriesSTATIONARIES , ive lost like half of the stationaries in my pencil box . When i go school , confirm need to go around ' EH GOT PENCIL LEND ME ? EH CAN LEND ME CALCULATOR? ' pity vivian who sits behind me because yeah , once i went to school , i straight away kop her plain water :$ !
however......

At least we get to meet our friends , arent they part of the reasons you come to school , waking up and having the motivation to go to school just so you can see them after a long holiday ? Time flies so quickly , and the holiday's over . It just seems like a week ago since i had my holiday. This is one of the holidays when i fully feel like .. i want longer holidays . Usually i will get too bored at home and i will just feel like going to school. Im a girl that doesnt like to stay at home , likes to roam around be it slacking or anything . I just dont like staying at home , only till now then i feel like staying at home.

Okay ... abrupt ending ? BYE.

2:50PM NOW ,
its dnt right now , and im just so bored . How ? Lucky im in a com lab when i have the feel to blog.

So .. Sentosa with Avery meixin and vernice today . Woke up at 11 to prepare , me very the excited please.

Had a easy difficult time choosing what to wear , and yeah , finally made my choice ^.^ !

Met them at 1230 at OCK , and we trained down to vivo makan kopitiam :$ (budget people)
so off to sentosa

 kinda weird picture but whatever :)

 meixin's unglam :B

the three girls :) !

so we volleyballed awhile and yeah , some people asked to play with us , and we rejected accepted ! Okay , so actually i was bioing , then vernice suddenly told me ' EH THAT GUY VERY HANDSOME' , and meixin also told vernice , and avery just joined in . So in the end we went huachi over two guys which are damn hot , ofcourse one's hotter , and the 3 girls dw to accept the fact that he keep looking at me :P , KAY PEOPLE DONT JUDGE OVER THIS POST , ITS NATURAL FOR GIRLS TO LOOK AT GUYS . eye contact ^.^ , HAHA ,

 VERNICE IS A SHORTY GIRL . okay !

So after that we almost died of thirst because we had no water . Meixin and Vernice went to buy drinks , then we had fun at the beach burying legs and playing with the waves to cool ourselves down :)

Then we went to play volleyball again  , with the strangers , but they are the friends of the shuaiges , so yeah me and vernice went to play with them in hope for them to appear . In the end , i told vernice one of the guys appeared , she went distracted and lost alot points :b even made th opposite people laugh like hell (Y)

me and avery went to build a barrier to protect ourselves from high tide while the other two went to chongliang , then we go chongliang vernice geisiao say she saw them sitting in one row at the wavehouse , but we missed them , ohshittt :O! 

photo my Meixin

so we went to makan mac , and yeah , we were starving like mad ! 

went home after mac , lovely time with them , go to sentosa again ? to volleyball and not to see shuaiges okay ? *winkwinks*

Photo from meixin

The polaroid we took , oh , we asked an angmoh to help us take ,she was pretty (high nosebridge !!) and her accent was so beautiful ! :$

okay bye ! :) 

time now , 12:26am

School's reopening , and im not in the least interested in the reopening of school right now , because it feels like , im just starting to enjoy my holiday ! :/

Inspiration .

So .. blogging now because vanessa's blog gave me inspiration to blog even though im supposed to be sleeping now because of chinese supp tomorrow . so yeah , support her first blog post by reading ? :) http://vshaven.blogspot.sg/

been going to sentosa these past two days , one is after training at CCAB yesterday , another is today's outing at pool and sentosa . so yeah . went out with Esmin, Vernice , Meixin and Avery today ! :) have to say they are fcuking fugging fun to be with .

People . learn the arts of staring into midair , i swear its not boring . Staring into midair without thinking about anything is just .. super .. boring  relaxing . especially at the beach , at night , staring at the waves sitting super close to it , hearing the wave sounds . And running away when the waves are about to reach you . Sitting close with your friends and having talks and gossips while warying about the waves that are about to engulf you any moment , building barriers to stop the waves from reaching you but in vain.

and yeah , unable to get my forward helix because xcraft said they will pierce it not straight . So... yeah hope im gonna pierce it soon with freda when school reopens , and pray hard that we wont get caught and asked to remove it .

then theres prom night too . and yeah , we have weird themes this year , BUT AT LEAST ITS AT A HOTEL , we were expecting a community centre . so yeah ... we are damn fucking  fugging glad please .

searched the word prom night on google and they gave me this photo . Seems scary and interesting , gonna watch it soon on funshion ! But yeah , prom night ofcourse isnt a night to die for , for us ordinary people . HAHA.

so .... wanted to have a proper post today because i was inspired , so ... 3 photos for today ? Next post will just be a spam of pictures , sorry people for being unable to give you all a proper nice blog to read . But yeah . dont judge ? Some people never know how much efforts some people put in to blog , like how i spent half an hour on this simple little post . So yeah , Bye ! 


its 12:36am right now , off to sleep ! :)

Holiday? NOT .

So, it's holidays ? NO . With those stacks of homeworks, I beg to differ that it's holidays right now , except for the wakin up late part :$ !

So.. Training's gonna be at ccab. It's damn fugging hot there please ~ :( !

It's located at botanic gardens , I swear I get goosebumps over those millipedes crawlin around . Chermine keep ' IDW GET STOMP!' fugging cute right, HAHA

After training , went to makan at Vivo with some of my teammates ( WE STINK THE MRT BUT WHO CARES) !

Went to sentosa Lateron to slack with Freda xinyi and avery! We got lost walking there then we ask an auntie for directions. Freda like retard keep shout ' EXCUSE ME ' shout like 10 times before the auntie turned around (Y)

Had that fuxking craving for liquor so I asked Freda help me ask a woman help me buy ' long island tea' and it's only 5.50! (Y) the woman bought it for herself also! LOL

Headed to the beach to slack and talk. Seems that me and Freda have alot of things in common , be it personality, similarities , and thinking ! And avery at there keep complaining she want sleep (Y) like a gongdai only! :) , so we homed around 845 since Avery needa go home :( !

KAY BORING UPDATE SORRY! BYE !



YES FORWARD PIERCING TOMORROW! Boomshakalaka!