:) ! Smile , because you deserve it .

Posting because Cheryl keep pestering me to update saying my blog's dead and that she doesn't like it :/ , so yeahhhh........... Maybe she wanted me to update about her *LEFT CHEEK* thing ? :b


Got o'level MT results today. Got C5 , and actually, to say the truth, that's my best result for the past for years . I know my abilities , and that my Chinese cannot make it, but yeah , I choose to be optimistic instead because at least for now , I passed , and I knew I tried my best. That's enough to motivate me for now . So people who didn't get good results , If you think your ability can be better than what you got , retake. At Least you won't regret ! I'm gonna retake , , and I know next time , it will be better .

Happy birthday cheryl! :) !

Happy birthday girl , shall post this in advance ! One more post below is ESMIN birthday one . HAIYO, blog filled with birthday wishes ah! :b HAIYO , never regret meeting me okay! :b , FATE HORHS ! Chey! :D ,

Thanks for being a good friend , a caring friend, and everything ! Hope you gonna enjoy your birthday okay? :) YOU BETTER , if not I'm gonna whack u updownleftright! And I'm gonna divorce you too! For tomorrow , you shall be prettier then me okay? :) , BYE LA NONSENSE EH U :) !

Happy Birthday ! @EsmintheAwesome

Happy birthday bitch ! Your birthday's tomorrow , but i post first lah okayy ! sooooooo . how to start . Sorry im not making it so special for you , like how you make a video for me . But ,, my blog like revolves around my life ah , SO BE HONOURED since u always want your big face and name in my blog dedicated to you ! :) ,

We went through alot , from being strangers , to aquaintances , to enemies , to friends , to haopengyou ! :) , and its like ...... seems like so recent that ive met you , but seems like its been a longlong time . We went through alot , many quarrels over many things , distrust of you to me , hope that ive gained your trust now ? :) , then many many quarrels , sharing secrets and things on our mind , you and ur superman ? :P , awww , here i am telling you , no matter what happens , you always have me okay ? and ofcourse many others , including vernice tan ! :) , because your special to us , and we hope that you know that ..

Yeah so ... cooking maggie for you for your birthday , awwwwww , HAHA . Dont be disappointed please , i know u always thinking about maggie :P ! Awwwwwwwwwwwww, whatever lah you ! :D , loser at pool , bitch please ! Sunshine , ive always written sunshines for you , just that , im not gonna give it to you , always wanting u to get it yourself , dont be disappointed okay ? :P ,im a lazy pig right ! so ,,,,,, think positive at all times , and always stay happy okay ?? :') !

Heeeeheeeee superman ? :b

Get well soon too ! lastly , HAPPY BIRTHDAY ! :)

ofcourse , to end this post with my face *AWWWW I SPOILT THE WHOLE POST * , confirm alot people thinking that way ! :B , but ....... SORRY ! IM STILL LEAVING MY FACE HERE :D

10:12PM
1hr43Mins left if my calculations is not wrong  ? :)

Today Chinese teacher played a touching video , second time I'm watching it . But it still never fails to make me tear . I swear it's damn paiseh to be crying in class , luckily Nicholas brought back my mood with his life story that teacher asked him about ! :)

When watching the video , I thought about my life since young , how I grew up with my father loving me. Thinking about it, I've never cherished him . We have differences . Whenever I eat with him , he always seem so hungry , jiu geisiao say I cannot finish, give him half of my food . In the end get scolded by him for wasting food . When I was young , he will always care for me . Knowing that he will get scolded by standing up for me infront of my mum, he still always help me . My father is not in good health, always coughing , falling sick , pains everywhere on his body . Watching the video and thinking about my father , what am I , unfilial daughter ? Third post about my father alr , typing all these always brings me to tears. I'm sorry .

Random .

At comlab here with cheryl Darling now beside me because i forced her to sit beside me because im a loner . OPPS .

hehe , training later . woosh !

been crazy over my eyebags recently , tadahhh , batman in action !

gonna go buy more after school , after training ! hehe ,

Anyone wanna buy it , you can buy it at Sasa now !

One mask actually cost around .. 4.95?

But sasa is having a sale and is selling it at only 1.95! And its quite useful , even though i still have puffy eyes .

Super cooling effect after using it . How to know when to take it out ? When its dried up . (You dont say lorhs ! ) LOL .

So .... go buy if you want your puffy eyes and wrinkles to decrease . (PS , im having wrinkles at only this age , MYHELL)

Abrupt ending ! BYE !

3:00PM .

Im still holding on , holding on those criticisms i get from people who dont know me , who i really am . Am i really such a nice person to hate , or does my looks irks you ? Or does my thick-skinnedness irks you ? Tell me , actually , i dont mind , i just detest those gossips behind my back . But one thing is , i wont change for you , because if you really treat me as someone important , you will accept me for who i am .

Quarrels

Quarreled with my mum again . As usual . This time , over something stupid . Like erm... Shoe size ? -.- , defug i know .. And as usual , she drag my father in over things that are super long ago, talking about sides , what go to your father side . When does a complete family have sides ? Yeah i admit , i hate going home because sometimes , having dinner with you all and talking to your will bring about quarrels . Even joking with you , also cannot . Then why ? Why keep calling me to go home and have dinner with you all , when i have no freedom of speech , when just having dinner with your brings about so much quarrels? Sometimes when im just so tired .. i refuse to go home , because the result is always quarreling , and my father will always be the victim . Why must you humiliate all of us in front of the crowd , in front of strangers with all your shoutings at us ? Dont you treat us as family ? Why do you even do that , when you know we care alot about our faces ? Some people are jealous of people with a complete family . But , even with a complete family , that have quarrels everyday , and not being able to face each other for weeks , whats the use ? Usually its all these shits that brings down my morality . Im sorry dad , for being so unfilial , and then its always you who have to suffer , suffer those humiliations , having to say sorry repeatedly when its not your fault , when its me who refuse to apologise , when its you who have to endure those scoldings in replace for my peace . 

oh , lets talk about more happy things kay ? Youth Carnival on saturday , who went to support ? ^.^ , SADLY , my class , no one played the games , even though its fun . We only earned money through our face painting , awww , i was such a good cashier , i stayed there for a long period of time till the last one hour when i went to play volleyball at the hall ! Oh , and i got back my happy phone from my teacher , yayy !

and miss polina came to our booth , i was like ' Can i take a picture with you ? I want take photo with you ! ' and she was like ' Yeah sure , i wanna take a picture with you too ! ' and she took out her camera ! That made my day okay ! :b ,

this girl was scared that i wont go school , then she be loner cashier :B , i wont so easy pangseh people one okay if i know your alone ! :b , DONT THINK SO LOWLY OF ME :P , okaycannnnnnn .

oh i just had my chinese oral on friday . Guess what , its a picture at the hdb block with shoes and racks , clothes hanging on top of the flower pots . Stunned for a moment , then i remembered my chinese teacher say ' Just try your best , describe the photo can already ! ' so i just literally described it , and its my first time trying my best so say as much as i could . There was a question which the invigilator asked

[ are singaporeans considerate nowadays ? ]

i replied


[ Singaporeans are inconsiderate nowadays because they are selfish and only think about themselves . BUT , i think im considerate because i always think and care for others ]

GUESS WHAT ,
the teacher laughed at me :(

guess my level of BHB is x1000000000000, can even bhb in front of an invigilator ,

but overall , at least i said things , usually , oral i say nothing one , maybe one word one word ? Sigh , my communication skills sucks .
kayyy .... abrupt ending , BYE !

i need to be happy ..i need to . No one understands how i feel , i want to give up ..

8.15PM

Rain.

Whats been happening these few days ? I mean weeks . Yeah , Singapore's damn fucking fugging hot. Like ..WHAT ?! So when it started raining , the responses were like as though Singapore's snowing ! (Y) , see the importance of the rain now ? HAHA .

actually one day i feel like just sitting in the rain , on the beach , facing the sea , and just stare into midair. 





so its actually the weekends now . And yeah confirm plus chop , time will pass so quickly.

HAHA , who are the people who are like the photo below ?

oh yeah, Juniors won the match against Jurong Yesterday . #prideofHuaYi !
Next match is against Shuqun , hope you all can do it ! :) WOOSH , i have confidence in you all !

Like so cool , i love diving and setting , even though sometimes diving hurts , but then , only volleyballers know the feeling of diving and being able to save the ball feels /




oh and people , stop asking why i choose HuaYi when i live so far ! I last time live at cck , but i moved to TiongBarhu after selling my condo at ChoaChuKang , and im currently staying at my grandma's house right now . Recently bought a new house which will only construct finish in 2014 , at CCK , so yeah . Dont ask anymore :) !

TIME NOW , 3;48pm
its time to go do my math homework now .

School ! :(

so .. school reopened already . and since i said i will do a blogpost yesterday night , and i forgot , so yeah here it is !

remember the time when we were in primary school and we relied on school buses ? ( for some of us ) Then now ? MRTS and buses , we have to rely on ourselves to go school , no maids no mothers bringing you to school , carry for you schoolbag . Talking about schoolbag , have your heard about the army man making his maid carry his haversack ? Opps no side tracking !

Im so not ready for school please , so whos with me ? Lets petition for prolonging the holidays ? Impossible dream ! Homeworks half done , this is so not happening please , who else prayed like me , to have their homeworks done magically by themselves in a night ? HAHA .

stationeriesSTATIONARIES , ive lost like half of the stationaries in my pencil box . When i go school , confirm need to go around ' EH GOT PENCIL LEND ME ? EH CAN LEND ME CALCULATOR? ' pity vivian who sits behind me because yeah , once i went to school , i straight away kop her plain water :$ !
however......

At least we get to meet our friends , arent they part of the reasons you come to school , waking up and having the motivation to go to school just so you can see them after a long holiday ? Time flies so quickly , and the holiday's over . It just seems like a week ago since i had my holiday. This is one of the holidays when i fully feel like .. i want longer holidays . Usually i will get too bored at home and i will just feel like going to school. Im a girl that doesnt like to stay at home , likes to roam around be it slacking or anything . I just dont like staying at home , only till now then i feel like staying at home.

Okay ... abrupt ending ? BYE.

2:50PM NOW ,
its dnt right now , and im just so bored . How ? Lucky im in a com lab when i have the feel to blog.